As scents of coming spring arise from the winter grass, a poem by Alicia Suskin Ostriker, from her new collection of poems, The Old Woman, the Tulip, and the Dog —
THE WIND THAT BLOWS THROUGH ME
I feel the hand of God inside my hand
when I write said the old woman
I am blown away like a hat
I swear God’s needy hand is inside every atom
Waving at us hoping we’ll wave back
Sometimes I feel the presence
of the goddess inside me said the dark red tulip
and sometimes I see her
waltzing in the world around me
skirts flying though everything looks still
It doesn’t matter whether you call the thing
God or goddess those are only words
said the dog panting after a run through the park
and a sprint after a squirrel
theology is bunk but the springtime wind is real
— And what today, right now, is real for you?
God is real for me. Theology is real for me. It determines how I perceive God, who God is, and how I worship Him. Theology, the study of the nature of God, is not bunk. It is part of spiritual formation; it is part of the Christian’s daily walk. It is part of affirming my faith. Without it, I am like a ship tossed to and fro. God’s truth is what’s real for me today, and always.
Lovely comment and confession. The poem, as i hear it, is not pushing one way of God’s presence in our lives over another, but is a song, really, of some of the different ways we are met by God throughout each and every day. The dog’s final panting confession is also a theology, just as much as the old woman and the tulip.
I loved the poem. Maybe ambiguity, beauty and vagueness are part of my theology.